Recently, I got back to running. I had a month-long hiatus. When I got back, I initially felt weak. Thoughts came to me that if I was able to do it before, I must be able to do it again this time, with practice of course. And with the hopelessness that I am feeling right now, I can't believe that months ago, I was continuously running for over 3 hours, 2-3 times a week, just for my training alone without a break and without a water to hydrate myself. And just the thought of me doing it again this time takes me away from actually doing it. I could just recall how painful it really was. It was satisfying though, something to boast to other people who didn't have the guts to even attempt it.