Yes, I suffered needlessly for a long time. In the end, I see it as selfishness. It's all about "me". Ungratefulness. Punishment for imperfection in oneself or their lives. Sometimes it's just an unexplainable sadness. It's so much easier to jump into negative energy than fight it. So much easier to hate yourself than to love yourself.. especially when society says most of us aren't loveable. It's a side effect of brainwashing too in my opinion. I believe in depression, don't get me wrong. I just think very few are actually depressed and if they are.. the current definition of depression is NOT permanent without drugs. It's still just that ladder of choices. But people cling to that label like a life line so they can say they don't have to try.. that they have a "chemical imbalance" that means they need to drug up and keep hating themselves and life. Constant punishment.. it's very sad. But not true depression. We're human beings, just as feeling sorry for ourselves and not being able to climb out of it is... that's not a need for drugs. And everyone that throws the chemical imbalance out there can bite me lol. Sorry guys! If there is such a thing, just maybe it's our "depression" creating it, instead of the other way around. Either way, it doesn't rob you of choice and the ability to fight back. Yeah, I can see now why people hate my thoughts on depression lmao... I accept that I'm wrong because I'm in the minority.. story of my life lol.