What is consistently on my mind is how I can't possibly imagine myself making a steady income out of work that I would be okay with doing. Someone else is always going to beat me out of the competition.
Currently, I am processing a lot of things in my mind. I tend to sleep really deep and long, dreaming and internally processing a lot of the things that have happened to me in this year. There have been major changes in my life, and somehow I still haven't mentally caught up with everything. I try to stay calm, and not think too much. Analysing has its place, but too much digging and trying to put things into perspective all the time, can have a very confusing and draining effect.
I'm thinking about how important it is for me to get out of debt because the late fees on bills are such a waste of money that I could be saving or using for my family. I'm trying to formulate a plan for getting out of debt in 60 days so that I can be caught up before my next birthday and really have something to celebrate. There must be something else that I can cut from the budget.
I'm thinking about the violin learning classes I'm going to join next week, hopefully. And I'm imagining myself playing a violin. Oh damn I would have to wait for a week.
